2010

The new year is near ...

and I'm still here ...

My thought should be clear ...

Clear of the whether ...

Whether of who will I be this coming year ...

To be their proud father ...

and a good husband to their loving mother ...

To appreciate the happiness that we built together ...

and hope that it will last forever ...

Forever is just a mere ...

Mere illusion if I keep on being a dreamer ...

but not facing the truth of the obvious that is clear ...

That to be the things I've mentioned earlier ...

Can only be achieve by hope, determination and sacrifice that is sincere ...

Sincere of it's purpose to justify why I'm here ...

and that is oh so clear ...



Me, them and all of us is here ...

Here just for HIM, the higher POWER.




Happy New Year.

Greatness . Khalil

Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children.


Kahlil Gibran

Madu Tiga!

Yesterday night ... was a sweet night. :)

Me and my whole family was at mama's house having dinner .
sedap ooiii makan kat rumah mama.

Suddenly Aiman just realised and said "Mommy! Daddy! ... P.Ramlee 'Madu Tiga' NOW mommy!..."
ha ha ha ...

Now,
How can this young boy Knows and actually likes P.Ramlee!
P.Ramlee is trully a Genius! ... Genius!!! :)
and not just that ... Adam , Aurora and the rest of my family boleh tergelak-gelak
melayankan P.Ramlee. THAT'S ENTERTAINMENT! They called him ... 'Funnyman!'

In some instance while they were all laughing.
I sudddenly became quiet ... not because I'm sad.
It's because I suddenly realised how ...
HAPPY I WAS ...

My Loving family ...
My Mama
and Ayai.

I'm so blessed with all this joy.
Alhamdulillah...

I cherished all this for one day ...

this will all be just ... memories.

sweet memories. :)

Your Children are not Your Children

They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself.

They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

© Kahlil Gibran, 1923, 1973.

Found in Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

love ...

You can't force anyone,
to love you passionately ...
but
what you can do is,
to love them endlessly.

Perkasakan Bahasa.

" Tiada erti menggapai Bintang,
Jika bulan ditinggal Sepi,
Tiada bangga di negeri orang,
Bila bahasa sendiri disegani."

A Man.

"A Man is a Man till their spirit move and change them into... Heroes."

Through Aurora's eyes.

"Smile if you want ... Cry if you must, but never ever leave me ... without saying goodbye."

Aurora Delisha binti Azeli

My dearest Aurora Delisha...

Tomorrow 30th June 09,
you are going to be 2 years old my darling...

You grew so gracefully...
so fast.

I just wanted you to know,
that your "Hi! Daddy!..." means the 'world' to me...

There is no other words that means as much
just because it came from you...

so sweet...
so soft...
so honest.

I love you ...
so very much.



I guess Allah is kind enough to me ...
to sent me 'Angels'...

as 'Beautiful' as you.


Happy Birthday sayangku Aurora Delisha.


Daddy will always promise to be a good daddy to you...




You are one of the biggest reason for me to keep on fighting, hoping and believing.


Because...

You are...
a 'miracle' to me.




Love means so little...
comparing to the feelings I have for you...

Daddy.

Q of the day! 4.05.2009

Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful... :)

Q of the day! 28.04.2009

"No one cares how much you know, until they know how much you care." :)

Q of the day! 8.04.2009

Do what others don't ... get what others won't! :)

Q of the day! 26.03.2009

"It is not the years in your life but the life in your years that counts." :)

Q of the day! 25.03.2009

“The most excellent jihad (struggle) is that for the conquest of self”
Prophet Muhammad :)

Q of the day! 24.03.2009

"If you always give, you will always have." :)

Q of the day! 23.03.2009

"Live your life and forget your age." :)

Q of the day! 19.03.2009

"It is not how much we do, but how much love we put in the doing.
It is not how much we give, but how much love we put in the giving."
Mother Teresa :)

• Talentime!

Q of the day! 17.03.2009

"We become what we do." :)

Happy B'Day my darling Aida Hairani!
37 today ... and still sweet.

:)

Q of the day! 13.03.2009

"Don't be a sunflower that blooms ... BE THE SUN!" :)

Q of the day! 12.03.2009

"Do today what others do not ... and have tomorrow what others have not." :)

Q of the day! 6.03.2009

"Speak Little, do much." Benjamin Franklin :)

Q of the day! 5.03.2009

"Carpe Diem! - Seize The Day!" :)

Q of the day! 23.02.2009

"Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out." :)

Think! - 20.2.2009

"A man complained when he lost his shoes until he met a man who lost his legs."

Q of the day! 19.02.2009

"We are the choices we make." :)

anak bukit...

anak bukit...

nilah kampung aku
kat alorg setarg, kedah.
ni rumah Papa...

mak-mak ngan pak-pak dok sini...
ada anti ma ngan anti sari
(adik Papa...)
dok jaga depa...

mak-mak rajin..
bela ayam itik... angsa! ha ha ha
ada pulak kucin buta... sian dia.
kami dok sergah dia sampai melelong lari tak cukup tanah..
pass tu dia pulak butakan.
langgarg habih tiang rumah...
cebe kpala dia...

kampung nih tinggi,
sebab bila tengahari semua turun bawah...
sejuk skit... angin tiup.
sidai baju semua kat sini ah...
kadang-kadang tak tahan depa pi buat ...
bedak sejuk huh...
jemurg kat depan ...
bau! huiih best!
kembang lubang idung... ha ha

tapi yang menatang paling best!
yang mak-mak belakan...
kambin tua nih...
kami pangge dia...
Tok Puteh.
kambin sekorg nih , dia tak betoi skit...
mak-mak dah bela dia lama sangat...
dia ingat dia tu...
Orang!
laaaa... betoi
dia nanti melepek tengok TV! (tau TV yang besarg rona coklat..
boleh bukak tutup pintu dia... ha ha ha )
kami dua ekorg , GG ngan akulah...
Ayai tak join lagi..,haluih lagi..
kami sat gi pi kat tok puteh ni yang dok tengok TV...
kami tanya dia...

"apa baguih berita hari nih?
ha ha ha ... (tangan aku atas bahu dia... macam member lama)
politik ok ka?
dia pusin kpala tengok kami dua ekorg nih ...
macam dia kata..
"hampa nih kalau dak tak paham..
jangan kacau aku nih...
aku nak concentrate crita nih..."
ha ha ha

pass tu kami apa lagi..
wrestlinglah, cekiklah, tarik ekorg dialah...
dia boringgg huhhhh...
mangkit teruih turun tangga pi daporg...
merajuk...
mintak nasi...
pass tu dia ingat dia boleh makan kat meja...

lahhh betoii..
dia ingat dia orang!

aku ngan GG dulu nakai nak mampuih!
yalah ...orang KL. Perak buih...
tak pernah tengok menatang kot...
kambin mana ada kat KL oiiii!
ha ha ha
kambin educated plak tuh....

pass tu mak-mak suruh kami tarik tok puteh keluarg..
tambat kat pokok depan rumah..
apa lagi...
peluang nak jadi KOBOI!
ha ha ah
ambik tali guni huh...
ikat lehiarg dia..
tarik pi tambat kat pokok...
dia tengok kami...
macam kata apa tau?
"awat hampa tambat aku kat luarg nih...
aku nak sambung tengok TVlah...
apa .. hampa nak mampuih ka..."

aku, part nih...
memang sedih...
tapi GG steady ja..
GG nih Hero aku...
apa dia buat ... semua OK..
aku ikut jaaa...
ha ha ah
Adiklah katakan...

tulah...
saja sronok nak crita kat hampa...

la nih...

kampung anak bukit dah tak dak dah...
orang dah ambik...
depa kata tanah tu depa punya...hmmm

Pak-pak dah tak dak...

Papa dah takdak ...

Mak-mak dok sakit la nie...

Anti Ma dah kawin... anak ramai... duduk KL...

Anti Sari... tak kawin lagi... dok KL gak.

Mama duduk kat Kelana Jaya ngan Ayai...
tak taulah Ayai nih nak kawin ngan sapa???
kita tunggu siapa yang kenaaa...

GG kawin lain, duduk kat kedah ... ada anak pompuan. Ariana
dgan bini yang baru... dok mengandung.
boleh sama time ngan bini aku..

Aku dengan bini tercinta Aida la nie yang dok mengandung! lagi skali...
Alhamdulillah...
Aiman Daniel... Adam Danish... Aurora Delisha...
dok kat subang dua...





hmmm...
banyak kenangan kat kampung anak bukit nih...





nanti bila-bila...

aku crita lagi...

Q of the day! 18.02.2009

"Don't just look but see, Don't just hear but listen, Don't just touch but feel..." :)

Papa, Walt Disney and Me

When you wish upon a star,
makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
will come to you

If your heart is in your dreams,
no request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star
as dreamers do

(Fate is kind, she brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing)

Like a bolt out of the blue,
fate steps in and sees you thru
When you wish upon a star,
your dreams come true



“If you can dream it, you can do it.”

Walt Disney said that...


Papa, you have always idolised Him....
and I...
am Idolising you...

You have always been there with me
when I am growing...
growing to become who I am now...
and whom I will become...

Papa...
Although you are no more here physically..
but...
I can always feel your presence...
Your Passion...
Your believe...

I miss you dearly.

I am here because of you...

I am strong because of you...

I am still fighting because of you...

You gave me such power and spirit that overwhelm me ...
everytime I am facing challenges...
from outside...

and from inside...

Im beginning to understand now
now that I have with me three beautiful 'angels'
a lovely wife and a career...

of

why you have been so quiet....

quiet ...

as though you are thinking then of how we three siblings is going to grow up to be...

We are OK. Papa

but my journey is still so far.

Papa...

I have such Big dreams ...

like Disney, I too am a dreamer.

I promise you now like I did back then...

I will be the best that I can be.

and You will never be forgotten...

for Half of Me...

is You.


I do admit that its hard sometimes...

Looking at your picture
reminds me of your warm hands holding mine...
always.

When Im there besides You ,

disturbing,
learning,
absorbing...
at your little corner in your beloved office ..

Im so proud of you papa...
back then...

well,
not many kids can say thay their dad is an Animator!

Im proud of you then...

Im proud of you now...

You have tought me in your own humble way of what 'respect' is...

even at times I dont understand why you have to be so little...
so soft...
so ...

you.


I do now.



Papa,
Adik amat rindukan Papa...



I believe in Miracles...

always.

Fountain, tree and me.

I just went jogging last Sunday..
Taman Tun's green lung.
believe it or not...
with one of my best friend,
Faizal Hmm Harket...

It was a beautiful day...
Sundays always is...

Well, this body is not used to it ...obviously.
my mind says run ...
my body says ... relax braderr...
ha ha

so...
they compromise.
I ran a bit... walk a lot.

Its 10am...
I took a rest by the lake.

Sitting on the bench,
I was looking ahead infront of me...
is a fountain and nearer to me is a bamboo tree (I think).

The fountain is spurting out water as high as it can...
Some went high... higher than the rest.
then it came down ...
but the ones that cought my eye is the mist that was produced when its high up...
helped by the blowing wind...
The mist is soft and melodic...
it echoes the wind and yet its made of water...
water and wind
makes the mist...
beautiful marriage.

Water, wind and trees.

Beautiful.

"When the student is ready...
The master will appear..."

:)

Cinta...

"Apa yang telah kucintai laksana seorang anak
kini tak henti-hentinya aku mencintai...
Dan, apa yang kucintai kini...
akan kucintai sampai akhir hidupku,
karena cinta ialah semua yang dapat kucapai...
dan tak ada yang akan mencabut diriku dari padanya"

Kahlil Gibran

Zoo & Kite

YESSSSS!!!

That's what ive felt after watching
YES MAN!

Good Idea...
What will happen IF we say YES to everything!
Everyone!
Every Occasion!
Bestkan?

Ha ha

So,
What happened is that day I actually brought my family to...
THE NATIONAL ZOO!
The last time i've went there was like...
Dinosaur was still roaming...
ha ha
Lama sangat dah..
that time ada this Orang Utan...
Kesian dia..
sakit jiwa... tarik bulu
Yalah! adaka tinggal dia sekor-sekor dalam tu... sian.

Anyway...
I'm this happy and proud Father with his loving family
walking... laughing... learning
Both ways...
Children learning bout animals...
Father learning bout his children!

It was a Free Exercise for me and my Aida...
Letih...

One of the reason of never bringing my family there is
I HATE CROWD!
sorry...
but i just hate it...
so...YES... I manage to bring them there and..
I actually got a shock...
It was just a handful of people there...
plus tourist...
I actually felt sad for the ZOO.. betul.

We took the train ride..Fun.
We ate at the Ayam Goreng apatah... Good.
but...
it was Gloomy for a Tourist Spot ..
sad.

But being the positive person that I am..ha ha .
We make do with whatever and JUST HAVE FUN!
Bought for them this... What can u call it hmmm..
This Lizard thing that can open its mouth to grab things thing! for Aiman Daniel
and a SAME THING Giraffe for Adam Danish...
Aurora Delisha got a Looong Tiger balloon!
Well, THEY are HAPPY!

When THEY are HAPPY!
WE are HAPPY! :)

Appreciates
Whatever is around us rite...
and Whoever...
Especially the ones we love...

We then went out around 6pm...
It was raining then. Basah skit...

Then we drove going back...

Suddenly we passed this HUGE playground just after Batu Caves...
KITES! alot of IT! FLYING!!!

Aida said... Jom kita pergi tengok Layang-layang tu!
Then I said "YES!"
ha ha
It really works... Wonderful!

I just swerve to the left and park among the many...
Ramai orang! Amazing...
How KL people lepak...
Main layang-layang pun boleh penuh padang!

Theres a lot of different kind of Kite!
BIG, small, colourful, layered...
long, short...
a lot...

My kids just went berzerk....
Happy terlampau! Including their MOM...

Then I saw this hmm.. 50ish uncle.
what he did is, he is there to make BUBBLES!
using his equiptments ...

He makes BIG wonderful BUBBLES!!!
FOR FREE!

Kids just LOVE him...
He makes them happy! Jumping! running...

Loking at him ...
makes me think...
HE IS A TRUE MALAYSIAN!
Giving without asking anything back...
Giving out smiles... Happiness...
Not worrying about race and religion.
He is THE MAN for the KIDS!
I stand there adoring him...
his energy...his sacrifice... his love.

Then the kites caught my eyes again...
Well..

This came to my mind when I looked at those wonderful colourful...
different kites...
flying ...
some high... some low...
some are on the ground getting ready to fly...
some are on the ground because they fell...
some had collisions on the air...
some fly free...

Thats LIFE isnt IT!
Some people just makes IT!
some doesnt...
some struggle hard to make it!
some just dont make it.. trying yet again but just couldnt make it..
some give up...
some are just living...
some just had it...
and there is this Extraordinary some
that just fly and fly and keep on flying!

Amazing!
Truly amazing what LIFE is...

What kind of Kite am I?

What kind of kite are you?

Well, You know who you are...

Lets Fly my friends...
Lets Fly...

for we wont know when we just cant fly anymore...

What an experience and learning I had...

That day was truly like a lovely painting.

Beautiful.

:)

Aurora Delisha

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archers sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

Kahlil Gibran



My Dearest Angel... Aurora Delisha,

You will soon to be a sister,
I can't even say and express...
what I felt having you and your brothers...

Angels, sent by Allah to me,
On what do I owe this miracle...
of having ,
of sharing,
of being...

of yet another One.

Love was always too simple...
Joy and Appreciation are complete.
With having all of you around me.

Thank You my dearest Aida Hairani...
for believing in me...

Luv
;) Daddy

Peribahasa...

12.30am • NZ

Peribahasa Melayu...

Seperti menarik rambut dari dalam tepung...

Rambut tidak putus...
Tepung tidak berselerak.

You, me and him.

Interesting!

:)

Happy New Year 2009

Hi,

Happy New Year to all...

yes, its that time of the year that we have always...
always wish that we will...
rethink.
restart?
replan maybe...

for me..its just another new day!
its just that it falls on the new year..

ive never failed to appreciate LIFE...
i hope i wont ..
Allah is the Greatest...
He who provides us all these beautiful things around us..
beautiful people around us..
even...
beautiful US!

Im also human...
it always gives me the dryness of feelings...
what have i achieved?
what should i achieved actually...
dry.

I will hang my thought to a simple quotes by
sorry forgot...

Dont just run and trying to catch your dream to much that you tend to forget...
What living is.

Appreciates ALL what you have NOW!

That is the rason why its called 'PRESENT DAY!'

Its a 'PRESENT' from GOD to us...

Im just a boy who grew up being a man
by being a husband and a dad...

My journey continues in this vast and unlimited possibilities ...
of choices...
of decisions...

to live...
to love.

Yesterday, had a very interesting topic talked with my good frens...
L.O.V.E

The word...
Admired by most, terrified my some...

I guess its to BIG of a topic to be talked about...
just four words and yet have such a ......Hmmm
Unexplained impact!
to us ya.

I don't think that we are supposed to understand love...
to understand life.

How?
If I may ask...

We are talking about feelings...
What is feeling?

We are arguing about time and space...
What is time and space?

What?

ha ha ha
Lets just laugh at it ya...

Lets Enjoy Life...
Lets Enjoy Love!

I frequently say this nowadays...

Theres No wrong,
Theres No Right...
It's just IS and will BE.

:)